in sound, silence

2009-04-21T18:05:00.001+08:00

i think this will be my last entry at blogspot.it seems redundant to maintain 2 blogs.goodbye.

2009-04-19T18:53:00.000+08:00

complexity?uncertainty?what else do you have up your sleeve?bring it on baby.i'm game.

2009-04-16T23:59:00.001+08:00

J is back.yay (:

2009-04-16T17:54:00.002+08:00

it's 6 hours before the day ends and it is not looking good.hs101 was expected but tricky.hl103 was expected,a rewrite.hw111 was an unpleasant surprise.thanks W for telling me.Amal i'm really very sorry you got caught in my mess.J is as he was,an uncertainty.and me.well i'm just tired.this semester is wrecking my life.i pray to high heavens that the remainder of today and this semester for that matter would get better.not just for me but for my fellow english majors.let's see what happens in 6 hours.and if it would be a nay day.

2009-04-16T01:15:00.001+08:00

today at 1300hrs i will be sitting for my sociology paper: people and society.after which at approximately 1530hrs i will have to see Frattarola about my 103 paper which i pray to high heavens i would not need to rewrite.then i will make my way to the infamous(?) hss lounge to bury my nose in 103 revision.hopefully sometime in the day i will hear from J.there's 23 hours left before today ends.let's see if it will be yay or nay.

2009-04-14T12:28:00.002+08:00

i'm feeling very cheeky and very frisky and very naughty.

2009-04-12T10:37:00.003+08:00

dearest idham hakim,
thank you for talking to me last night and allaying all that needed to be put to rest.i am slowing scraping the ground to dig a hole big enough to bury this mountain of nonsense.and yes.i realised that i did not love syeh muhammad hafiz.i like all the drama.the crazy highs and the devastating lows.the jealousies the lust that erupted the moment i see him.i loved those moments.i never loved him.thank you for becoming my go to person again.the person i talk to when my brain starts filling up with this and that.and listening to me ramble and putting down my arguments so i can come up with better ones.thank you for being the friend you were back in secondary school all over again.for calling when you know i most needed someone to talk to.thank you for flirting with me and making me feel wanted even though we both know it's all in the name of fun.thank you also for being jealous whenever i talk about J.and yes i know i talk about J alot.but it's better J than harping upon the past syeh muhammad hafiz.thank you sayang.really.and thank you for asking me out to lunch and nagging me for not eating more than 1 meal a day.thank you for being a friend.
yanni.

ps.NAS!i deleted my sappy LJ entry (:

2009-04-10T18:05:00.006+08:00

i really want to go into a massive tirade about how school is fucked and hence i
am fucked and hence life is fucked and therefore the rest of mankind should be
fucked along with me but i realised how trite it would sound so i'm just going to
shut the fuck up.yes i like the word fuck.live with it.fuckssssssssssssssssssssss.

2009-04-08T01:52:00.002+08:00

J made this for me
it says hello stranger
i feel strangely at ease
grenadine+blue colouring

2009-04-07T02:44:00.002+08:00

i want my baby cousin here to entertain me
i want J here to spoil me with hugs and kisses
GAHH!

2009-04-04T12:38:00.000+08:00

what else is there?

2009-04-02T10:56:00.002+08:00

butter.cranberries.7ups.48SGD.evian.merlion.latte.steps.stars.lips.J.
a series of very fortunate events.last night was fucking awesome.

2009-03-30T22:28:00.002+08:00

Dear Yanni,

When you read this some time in the future know that today you've been the happiest and the saddest you've probably ever been in awhile. For one Faizal decided that he should text you after going AWOL on you and tell you what you knew all along, that he doesn't like LIKE you. Then you also discovered that your pain threshold isn't that high because you removed your tongue piercing after less than 6hours of having it done. You were however happy because you rekindled the thought provoking conversations you have with Idham. You were also happy because you realised that people remember you despite you thinking that you're really quite dispensable and insignificant. You also maybe grew a little bit wiser, even if it was at the expense of a little bit of happiness. You also realised that you would do just about anything for a few select people in life like Nas. You found out a bit more about yourself today too. When you read this in the future be proud of where you were today. Live life a little. Forget and bury the god damned hatchet if it's still in your back pocket. You're stabbing yourself in the back with it. Also know that today you accept that Hafiz is a part of your past and never that of the future. Be the bigger person Yanni even if you are physically small.

Love, me.

2009-03-29T14:28:00.003+08:00

i only want to stay up and wait until 0505 (my time of birth) with people who i love dearly?

and if i can't have that then can i just have texts and hugs?one of which is from you?

i didn't wake up happy.i barely slept.i still miss him.S says it's karma.

i should stop being an epic bitch.then maybe.just maybe.

2009-03-28T19:35:00.000+08:00

i just cracked my camera screen!
I AM OFFICIALLY DEPRESSED!

2009-03-28T11:19:00.002+08:00

you were damn near perfect.
that's how i'll remember you.

2009-03-26T19:24:00.005+08:00

dear eliters.thank you for the cake.boobs.phallus.cigg.my favourite.thank you jm and ness for sharing in the celebration.thank you for the lovely notes written in my presence.thank you for the huge assed barney that is currently guarding my door.thank you for the beautiful bag.a girl can never have enough big bags.thank you for being there.thank you for being so marvelous and starting me on my twos with a big bang.i love y'll kays!

2009-03-25T04:08:00.002+08:00

and i keep replaying the moment.where i turned and i saw.as though i was at life's end.my life in surround sound and on silver screen.and the 2 syllables that have governed my life for so long.a fifth of my life.specifically.escaped the confines of my being.in bewilderment.in shock and awe.in need.ha.fiz.you looked.an endless stream of adjectives.sloppy.tired.irate.happy.so painfully familiar.and then.serene and fulfilled.i lost you.again.ironic.i never.had you.never ever had.and i stood.my body.a jumble.heart in throat.eyes on feet.hands.a vice on ciggs and beer.but.but.but.the mind.it.plays tricks.it rewinds.pauses.but a memory.pain.cathartic epiphany.replays.rewind.i've lost all of you.ashes to ashes.dust to dust.

2009-03-22T23:39:00.004+08:00

FROM in loving memory to reunion dinner to cheerobics.

PURELY A PICTURE POST.FUCK IT BITCHES.

2009-03-22T00:18:00.002+08:00

i love your sleep induced voice.

2009-03-20T12:34:00.002+08:00

yesterday was nice.thanks 20yr old gigik person.

2009-03-18T19:35:00.004+08:00

after taking hours to say yes to me,i saw you on monday for late lunch at long john silver.then chatting and webcam-ing for like 2+ hours before we both got too tired to type properly.then this morning again webcam and chat till your parents came back and you got the car and fetched me from school so i could accompany you to the gym then you made me eat.i'm chatting with you now.and you're being silly.and making me smile.and i'm gonna be seeing you again tomorrow for yoghurt and dinner.and i'm happy (:

2009-03-17T21:30:00.001+08:00

because there is nothing more important than this.

2009-03-13T12:09:00.004+08:00

i should make a concerted effort to take more outfit shots.
taken during hoes down under.
click to see details.
ss henley-f21
knit tights-f21
sequinned headband-diva(kl)
bangles/rings-everywhere
(xposted to my fashion blog : personnes à la mode)

2009-03-11T17:10:00.010+08:00

my current obsession, Sarah Kane.
Sometimes I turn around and catch the smell of you and I cannot go on. I cannot fucking go on without expressing this terrible, so fucking awful, physical aching fucking longing I have for you. And I cannot believe that I can feel this for you and you feel nothing. Do you feel nothing?

Do you feel nothing?

And I go out at six in the morning and start my search for you. If I've dreamt a message of a street or a pub or a station I go there. And I wait for you.

You know, I really feel like I've been manipulated.

I've never in my life had a problem with giving another person what they want. But no one's ever been able to do that for me. No one touches me, no one gets near me. But now you've touched me somewhere so fucking deep I can't believe and I can't be that for you. Because I can't find you.

From: 4.48 Psychosis.

2009-03-05T01:34:00.002+08:00

dearest nasirah a.r, amirul s.s, muhammad zulfadhli m.s, syeh muhammad hafiz s and ahmad abdillah m.t

thank you for the late night drive to jln kayu for prata.then to marina barrage to sing songs in the wee hours and play pepsi cola.driving faster and parking in some odd spot so i can go pee.giving me piggyback rides.trying (and failing) at racing up the slope at marina barrage.taking rubbish pictures.buying me dinner.letting me sit in the car from adm to my hall bus stop.making me lost in car talk.but best of all for making me laugh for the past 8years.life would so suck without all of you.

yanni.

2009-03-02T21:03:00.004+08:00

i was hungry and lonely so i decided to do this.nothing compared to ljsecret/postsecret standards though.click for larger image.enjoy?

2009-02-26T17:59:00.002+08:00

THE BANDS

The Esoteric
Vicious Meaow
Muachee
Daniel and Kumar
Valentine's letter
The Same Few People
Select Sides
Dry Risers

fuck missing you.

2009-02-26T01:42:00.001+08:00

because i love you more than life itself.thank you for being my friend.

2009-02-22T13:02:00.002+08:00

date: friday, 13 march 2009

time: 1900hrs till late
location: innova jc, lt1
address: 21 champions way
tix: 5sgd
it's for a good cause people.so please support.
this event is also on my fb page.
can reserve tix through me.
LOVES.

2009-02-19T23:54:00.000+08:00

i'm going to be appearing in a long john silver commercial.

2009-02-17T02:40:00.001+08:00

just thought you should know that i love you.

2009-02-13T01:51:00.001+08:00

my skin died on me.using this for now.and C baby thanks (:

2009-02-11T21:26:00.003+08:00

yay me!

2009-02-06T15:38:00.002+08:00

yesterday i allowed myself to cry.

2009-02-03T22:04:00.003+08:00

they say the nights are the hardest.i think they thought wrong.the mornings are harder.waking up,you reach out,your hand lands not on a warm body but unyielding sheets.you turn your head but your lips do not meet his rather they feel a dampness because of the tears you unknowingly cried in your sleep.the mornings are the hardest because you wake up to emptiness.

2009-01-31T20:33:00.002+08:00

i have a cute baby

we have the same smile

and we love to make silly faces

she oft wonders if i'm sane and will frown

but mostly we just love to cam whore

2009-01-30T10:03:00.002+08:00

7 stages of grieving (for a lack of a better word)
1.denial (saying that i didn't feel anything when bam 5mins later...)
2.anger (clenching and unclenching my fists and punching stuff)
3.madness (burning his hair and laughing nonstop after)
4.delirium (talking to myself and just laughing really quietly)
5.retail theraphy (hello belt,blazer,vs top.bye bye 100bucks)
6.yet to be discovered
7.he says it's sleep (haven't reached this yet)

7 states of grieving (for a lack of a better word)
1.having smudged eyeliner (running mascara is a bonus)
2.red red eyes
3.grimy skin
4.smelling like an ashtray
5.oily like hell hair
6.dry mouth
7.sore throat and headache from 16sticks

i really love you for being there yesterday.and not saying/asking unnecessary things.and just sitting there smoking with me though i doubt i was much fun to be with.and trying to make me laugh.and having mindfucked conversations.not having an answer to my question how can one think about not thinking,does that just not happen naturally.and braving cold water despite pokies.and chatting until you went to watch your show.thank you baby.i promise you that hair grows.like how as you said love can be found and time regained when we die.live fast die young right?

2009-01-27T22:51:00.002+08:00

where are you?
like dew on grass,
you were a constant.

where are you?
like west setting sun,
you were a certainty.

where are you?
hiding?leaving?left?
come and fill me?

again-
i am but a canvas;
for you to paint.

i didn't want you;
now you're gone
how cliched

though you refuse,
i force,
i beg.

fuck this shit.
i can't write,
anymore.

save me.

2009-01-25T08:24:00.004+08:00

grow hair grow.[edit] i'm just too impatient.cut my hair.found this while i was cleaning up my laptop.i think s wrote it.why do i mess up the good things in life?wanting so much to rant.but i'm just going to swallow it in.it stemmed because of my own actions anyway.enjoy this gem.

The sky
Maybe the sky is sad.
I used to think,
As I face the weeping heavens.
Watching the crystal dew drops
Fall like dispirited stars
Catching the glow of the evening lamps.

I used to pretend the tears were my own
As they landed their melancholy dampness on my face.
To try to imagine
The pain of these clear grey showers
As they drum their solemn song on
The sidewalks
In time with the setting sun.

I tried to taste those transparent falling fairies.
But the taste was too fleeting to savour.
Almost impossible to remember.
Like a thought too complex to unravel.
A feeling too deep, too fluid to express.
Aliens on my young unacquired tongue.

I hear my mother call me back
Against the loud sobbing of the wind.
I tried to feel the sentiments in those drops
But there was no answer to that cold clammy question.
Those mysterious kamikaze troopers
Still soaking my shoulders
Chase me back into the warm.

The smell of rainwater remained as I stare.
My pupils fixed on the grey beard that was
Floating and enveloping the tearing maiden
That was the sky.
Leaving me still to wonder,
The reason behind her tears.
-S

ilykthxbye.

2009-01-22T17:53:00.002+08:00

i sleep with my door unlocked.

2009-01-20T08:41:00.001+08:00

i will not crumble and fall.no matter how tempting and difficult.limerance will not get the better of me.

2009-01-15T18:45:00.003+08:00

when i spirited into the mats i instinctively looked for you but your absence slapped me in the face.i lost nothing yesterday.my hall didn't retain the cheerleading championship and you weren't there.but i lost nothing.in fact i gained determination to be part of shelly's all girls' stunts team.and i am now hell bent to end things with you syeh muhammad hafiz.whoever you're going out with or contacting or whatever you call it can have all of you.last night was my epiphany.

2009-01-09T11:52:00.004+08:00

HALL OLYMPIAD
SPORTS AND RECREATIONAL CENTRE
NANYANG TECHNOLOGICAL UNIVERSITY
WEDNESDAY, 14 JANUARY 2009
6PM - LATE(?)

hello babies.please come and watch my cheer performance.anyone can come but if you're not from NTU it's advisable to come earlier so that you can get better seats.nasirah and clara babies please come then y'll can sleepover at my place after (if my roomie's not in (: ) and we can gorge ourselves silly on twister fries!parts and zul sayang the 2 of you must come also cause you love me.and D since you're the first person i asked and cda is like so near (and you know your way here (: ).N you must come cause you'll finish being an officer at 5pm and you can add some sexiness to the crowd in your uniform (the new pixelated uniform is damn ugly)!H it'll be your second day off from firefighting and i'd love if you could come.after that night where you came over after cheer at 3+am i want you to see what i've been doing that as you said made me continuously injure myself.and everyone else who wants to see girls in short skirts and crazily strong boys cheer.come down.then y'll can cheer for hall 8's black and white royals.SEXITED!i smoke cause the gesture is in a messed up way relaxing.i smoke so that my clothes smell like as though i spent the night with you.really cannot wait.yesterday all my stunts went up and the adrenaline of it was WOW!screw the pain.omg!AMAL i'm so sorry i fell asleep during our mini mcparty.but it was damn fun chilling with you.more decadent and sinful mega prosperity burgers and twister fries soon-ish.ilykthxbye.

2009-01-08T12:02:00.002+08:00

i wrote a haiku and sent it to S.then we had a long chat about random shit like we always do.you should call me more since you're in gnoket and bored shitless.i don't want to go to school today because i'm having a super off outfit day.big fat ugly sighs.please kill me now while i sit in my turqoise(H thinks it's a nice colour) undies and 4inch canary yellow heels.

2009-01-06T20:36:00.003+08:00

i don't like the fact that SHE wrote on N's wall.but since we're just friends i can't really demand that N delete what SHE wrote simply because it's HER.

i miss my long-ish hair and my ridiculously long and thick fringe.actually i think i just miss how it looks like when i put it up in a "bun" with my pink pen.

i am falling sick from very odd hours and ridiculously erratic weather.i need some normalcy.can 14th january come any faster?i feel so damned drained.

i realised that i don't need H's presence as much.out of sight out of mind?maybe H's hiatus did me some good.i'm forgetting how it feels to be in bed with him.

2009-01-04T21:45:00.004+08:00

thank you babies for a supremely wonderful start to 2009.

how zai!how strong!first showcase 08012009 at hall8.final showdown 14012009@src.be there.

your hiatus has made me think.i've missed you.

2008-12-31T09:43:00.005+08:00

it has been a good year for me actually.the last few days may not have been ideal but after last night it seems that 2008 will end on a good note.here are shoutouts to the people i love.cheers.

shelly yeo xue li and noramirah binte abu bakar.i have not been the best third to our threesome but it seemed that i have little in common with you now.for one the two of you are in nus.and then there's the boyfriend that both of you have.i knew that we would drift apart but i didn't think it would be so soon.maybe as 2009 rolls in we will have settled into uni life and have time to spend together.i'm like incomplete.i need my two-thirds y'know?

you have been the best thing that has happened to me since sec 1.you're like my best ever girlfriend.and sometimes things can get weird between us and we seem to be out of sync but in the end i know that you're the best thing that has happened to me.the past month we've been closer than we've ever been in quite awhile and i was reminded of why i love you.we say the same things we text each other at the same time.and you totally get me.7years and counting baby.

stella gf,c baby,wl,shar,jay and daniel.thanks for being friends with me.i'm not the most interesting person on the planet nor am i that tolerable and yet you guys felt that i was ok enough to be friends with.you have made my uni life so far bearable and truckloads of fun.another 7 semesters to go and i do believe we'll stay friends.2nd upper people.no less!we are english majors and we will have a job at stella's school when we graduate.lol.

to clara love:i'm glad we're friends again.i cannot wait to see you this thursday.kisses.
to nicholas goh:thank you for loving me.especially when i didn't love myself.really.
to ami darling:let's forget what happened and start anew.you're still my person.
to zul sayang:we'll always have something no one had.12days together in sabah.
to hunney:what's the point of hiding when everyone already knows?let's date.lol.

there were moments in 2008 which i would rather not have had.however how can you know happiness if you never faced sadness.so it's all good.have a great one y'll.it's been a long(er) year.

2008-12-27T11:11:00.003+08:00

this isn't the perfect course of action nor is it the perfect arrangement.nothing about this is perfect.but for the few hours that you're here time for me stops.and i am ensconced in what i deem to be perfection.from 400 to 1030 for the seventh time in 2 months i fall asleep in this nook your shoulder has and in your tshirt that smells of cigarettes,united colours of benetton cologne and you.

know that when i read her blog i feel inferior.i feel that what i feel for you is not enough.not even close to the intensity of what she feels.and i feel inferior.i feel that she is the better person.i feel that she makes you a better person.i feel that this is no contest for her because she is simply who she is.the better choice.but though this competition is killing me i'm in it.so pick me.choose me.love me.me.

this is my so-called "confession".this is me telling you that i don't want to shower because i smell like you.this is my declaration to the world wide web.this is me not hinting.this is me not hiding.this is me blatantly telling you.yes YOU.that i want you to want me and not her.this is me putting myself on the line because since 12 october 2004 i have not known a moment where i didn't want you.

i love you.ok.thanks.bye.

2008-12-21T20:22:00.002+08:00

i cannot comprehend how a person can hold hatred in him for so long.hatred tires me.it makes me antsy.i really have no idea why you hold such animosity towards me.i cannot remember when i have purposely crossed you.and if i did,isn't four years a long time for you to hold a grudge?

i'm feeling very mellow today.things happened this morning.i tried to help and well i guess my actions just proved the saying that the road to hell is paved with good intentions true.and i have no escape from this feeling that i have failed you (yet again).smoking provides but a temporary respite.

physically and emotionally i just feel so very tired.a part of me is screaming for me to stop all this.to declare that enough is enough.but yet another is pushing me to just hang on a little longer.for that someday.i feel what hamlet must have felt.to be or not to be.that is the question really.

i don't want to rant anymore.tommorrow.i'm going to play touch in the morning.meet nas in the evening.and cheer at night.perhaps things will start to look up from tommorrow.i hope they will.and at the end of the day all i want is to tell you everything.because that somehow makes it alright.

ilykthxbye.

2008-12-20T19:28:00.002+08:00

can hear people caroling.i am so not in the mood for happy.blame it on the fact that i cannot lift my legs.like i need to use my hands to cross my legs and it kills to climb up stairs.but surprisingly my abs feel alright.on my way to getting a six pack.and looking great in bed.stupid oj always squeeze my fats.and speaking of oj.that boy just refuses to listen to me.his wisdom is killing him and affecting the other teeth and yet he refuses to go to the dentist."scary ah" he says.am alone at home on a saturday night.woe is me.maybe i should step out of my comfort zone and go catch a movie alone.i already miss nas and ami and zul.and just saw them like a few days ago?and P still hasn't gotten back to me regarding HL202.wilson and i are contemplating quitting school and rotting on toilet seats and in starbucks and at the same time i need to pimp him to terrence so that i have money.disgust is desire philophises wilson.so wilson's disgust towards terrence's advances is in actual fact his desire.killed himself by saying that.seriously.i'm very sad la actually.i didn't get to go for ocs boy's commissioning parade.and he's so not asking me to the ball.i was supposed to be that girl.the one who was there at the start and the one who is there at the end.but i guess it's just not meant to be.oh well.feel like going to starbucks to get atas kopi and finish reading murakami.hmmm.ilykthxbye.

2008-12-18T10:32:00.003+08:00

i totally did not sleep because
1.oj's wisdom tooth is growing out and he kept tossing and turning in bed
2.i was coughing like there's no tomorrow
3.my roomie walked in on oj and i (talk about awkward!)
4.oj's mum texted him saying his staying out was getting tad bit too much
5.ocs boy's mum is in hospital
6.i'm hungry

yesterday night was so so weird.sixth time oj's slept over.no night has ever been so eventful.lol.oj smelt of ciggs and cologne.can someone spell sexy.lol.now i feel like smoking.i know it's bad for my lungs but drinking's bad for your liver.and smoking kills my appetite.so a the disadvantage and the advantage cancels each other out.lol.my logic.i'm rambling.ok.going to go shower and get some food in me.ilykthxbye.

2008-12-17T09:47:00.001+08:00

i don't want to want someone who doesn't want me.

2008-12-09T21:21:00.003+08:00

if one day i disappeared,would you notice?would you look for me?run to the top most floor of buildings?climb over toilet cubicles?look under tables and in small spaces?would you?would you find me?

2008-12-06T10:56:00.002+08:00

dear you,i don't want to compete.

2008-12-03T15:16:00.002+08:00

of late nights and friends
of crazy nonsensical silly texts
of rubbing my back when i cough
of knocking doors and door latches
of sleeping in the crook of your arm
of snuggling for hours and slow wet kisses
of scents and tastes and sights and sounds
of right and wrong and reasons and excuses
of crispy peanut butter waffles and lazy lunches
of my rights to eat slowly and not finish my food
of all that makes makes me and everything alright
i'm not falling in love.i'm just falling in place.ilykthxbye.

2008-12-01T09:51:00.002+08:00

"i just wanted a reason to text you"
this boy makes me damn happy.

i am going to get cousin no 21 in 6-7months.
that's grandchild number 24.wheeeeeee.

life is at an absolutely disgusting standstill.
and i'll be complaining next week cause of trainings.

anyone up for B&J's chunk fest?
gf perfect excuse to wear our maxis!!!

still have not registered for classes for next sem.
slap me already.i am so fucking tired.i must be getting old.

i miss all those pool sessions with my beloved 643A.
and i miss touch.i fucking miss it.i quit the ntu team btw.

2008-11-26T12:19:00.003+08:00

simple jack's party was the absolute sex.
i am still tired from all the debauchery.
i got burnt cause of random cigarettes.
simple jack's house was an EPIC mess.
i would do all of it again in a heartbeat.
I LOVE YOU.OK.THANKS.BYE BYE.

2008-11-24T09:52:00.002+08:00

LIBERATION.
i can already taste it.

2008-11-23T19:08:00.002+08:00

Dearest Nasirah,
You are the best. In the past 6 going to 7 years, you've never given up on me. Even when I was a major bitch, when I looked like a car just ran over me, just to name a few times.
Nobody makes me smile like you do. Whenever we meet, it never feels like we've not met for so long because we just fall into a conversation. I never seem to run out of things to say to you. And I never tire of hearing your stories. You are such a great conversationalist. You know?
As you turn 19 today, I just want you to know that I think you're AWESOME. You are God's gift to me. Your dimpled smile never fails to make me smile. Your little quirks, unique to you alone never fails to cheer me up when I think of you and how much I miss you.
I know this is starting to sound more like a eulogy than a birthday wish, I'm getting to it. Babe, you could never be more beautiful or funny or smarter than you already are, because to me you are the most gorgeous, funniest, wittiest and smartest girl I've ever had the privilege and pleasure to have known.
I would not trade you for anything else in the world. I will never regret the things we've been through. I'd do all of it in a heartbeat because it means that I can do it with you.
And before today ends, my little prayer for you is so that god bestows on his most deserving creation love and happiness and success. Nobody deserves it more than you do. I love you babe. Always, all ways.
xoxo,
yanni.

2008-11-23T00:17:00.002+08:00

22nd november 2008
22:56
oj
+659*******
anyway do you know that when i talk to you i get very serene and fulfilled inside?

2008-11-18T14:07:00.001+08:00

there will never be disappointments if there were no expectations.ilykthxbye.

2008-11-17T12:07:00.001+08:00

you're not the only one feeling nostalgic.ilykthxbye.

2008-11-14T00:45:00.002+08:00

OMFG!I NEED EXAMS TO BE OVER SO I CAN GO INTO A D.I.Y FRENZY!as most who are in lit know i already have a grey dyed tee and a pink bleached tee (which needs to be re-bleached).i have 2 skirts in hall.one is my failed mini which will be transformed into a long patchwork-esque skirt.the other is a denim rahrah skirt with an elasticised(?) waistband.it's all undecided due to exams.just shredded my stockings.it was initially a stupid hole in the middle of nowhere that started running.and since i am such a drama queen i decided.hell all the way man.and shreded or rather made the run bigger and longer.now i am obssessed with the shredded tee i saw on childhood flames.and that holey backed tee.i need seam sealant.and i want to sequinfy my red dress/tunic thing.and meshed panels.and lace.and harem pants (which i've wanted since forever).and capes (MUMMY I AM SO SO SO COVETING THE ONE YOU ARE SELLING!).D.I.Y is such a good reason for me who is in a very very bad recession after buying 1 maxi dress,1 batwinged dress,1 dorothy-esque shiny shoes,1 river island plimsolls knockoffs and f21 spreeing thrice.and i fking love to pile my small small wrists with bangles and cuffs and beads so if you don't want yours i'd gladly take it in.the juxtaposition is SO love.my attempt at studying is a FAILURE.nvm i deserve rest after that hell of a systems paper.fuck man science and tech paper write until hand pain.i will die for my core modules.i just know it.and i'm so carting my blazer,denim jacket and many shawls to school.exams are such a perfect reason to pile on the layers.and i swear there is just something about fast food or maybe it's jsut macdonalds that makes me shit.i swear.the room we're in smells of stale cigaratte smoke.it is unwise to smoke in an airconditioned room my dears.i hate exams.omg.i hate 102.fuck it man.fuck it to the ends of hell and back.gahhhhh!and and and i miss my babe.sorry that was truly random but ya.i miss you babe!!!and SUNSNACK is the bomb.eating already peeled(?) sunflower seeds is orgasmic.i swear yo!and i NEED an occasion to wear my maxi dresses.picnics on ADM rooftop?!lol.and can someone please seriously teach me how to fly a kite.i cannot wait for the flea at PLAY on the 27th.sell off all my ugly slogan tees.don't know what the shitte i was thinking.probably wasn't thinking actually.i want a venti Starbucks iced passion tea with SIX(cause it's babe's favourite number) pumps of raspberry!!!ouh and was just chatting with oj and we concur on how feelings are a weakness.will elaborate when my brain is not (as you can see) filled with so much trivialities.i feel like growing out my hair.wm's theory of long hair-ism is getting to me.and i haven't had long haor in donkey years.and the process will teach me perserverance.ok.i am dying already.going to watch season 1 og gossip girls in all its glory.teehee.happiness is the milleu i am in now.ilykthxbye.

2008-11-13T00:20:00.002+08:00

the people in my blog whose names are never mentioned are all fictitious.teehee.i'm in a nicotine high.teehee.wm should stop calling me baby and babe.i know it means naught but it still makes me high.teehee.nicotine rocks.oj in the morning is the bestest pick me up you could ever ask for.lol.i am not making sense because my mind has been corrupted by systems for everyone.SCREW GENERAL SCIENCE AND TECHNOLOGY PRESCRIBED ELECTIVES!ok before i murder someone or tape up my eyelids or as wm suggested glue them up with superglue i will go and sleep.ilykthxbye.

2008-11-11T14:45:00.002+08:00

my life is lacking frivolity.and seriousness.i mean yes exams are a serious affair but i am so godforbiddenly lassiez fairre about it.i need school so i can bitch about all the ugly things people wear.perhaps that survey about which tertiary institution having the u-g-l-y-est people and ntu being it was right.i need to do something that does not involve food,gossip girls and my bed.no OJ not in that sense.perv.ok.i should go shower and do my laundry and clear my thrash and make my bed (only to mess it up if OJ comes).teehee.maybe life still has it's frivolous moments.ouh.i know i may not have the perfect body and we all know i don't have flawless skin but if what's here isn't hot then i'll be damned.ilykthxbye.

2008-11-10T18:23:00.002+08:00

gahh.it has not been a productive day.for one i woke up at noon.(god bless the rain baby).and i've been eating nonstop cause i just restocked my food stash in hall.(read:soup,canned tuna,mashed potatoes,etc).and i'm happily streaming gossip girl to watch.(let it air here already).and fireman thank you for being such a sweetheart yesterday.(and sorry about the ciggs).so anyway i really should study but i ended up doodling on my river island plimsoll knockoffs.(and it looks like shitte now).and i should do something about my love hate relationship with my weight.(it's getting really old).i need motivation to study.(ironic how i am not tempted to chat when i study with you).i hate exams.can't they base everything on my assignments.then my gpa will at least be a 3.0 unlike now.the uncertainty of exams is torturous.and i need to pay for stupid miscelaneous fees.omfg.can this sem end already.please.and i am so in a recession.(too much retail theraphy).omg.study yanni.STUDY.ilykthxbye.

2008-11-07T08:32:00.001+08:00

it is only shallow people who do not judge by appearances.the mystery of the world is the visible,not the invisible - oscar wilde.when you think about it...it does ring true,no?we are always going on about the things we can't see when we barely know much about what we can see.ever question why someone presents themselves a certain way?why did the author write it this way and not the other?why oh why?if you don't know the visible how is it that you will know the invisible?when you don't know the outside you already want the inside.ok.i'm not making sense.i've been studying too much with caine aka god and wilson aka the idiot.and smoking too much with them and watching them at their annual butt flicking competition.and laughing at the idiotic antics and things said when we are all dying from the information overload,hunger and cold.AND wilson i so did not sabo you.so stop it sei.ilykthxbye.

2008-11-05T23:59:00.002+08:00

i felt like typing something.but that something is eluding me.perhaps it's a rhetorical something.or maybe it exists in organic time while the rest of me is in mechanised time.perhaps it doesn't exist in this dimension but does in another.it's all subjective.so that something.maybe it will only exist in the blanks between the words that are already here.it could possibly only be understood by those with implicit knowledge about that something.perhaps.anything's possible.ilykthxbye.

2008-11-05T00:55:00.002+08:00

hey you.thanks for dropping by with the big goofy smile and making me laugh and forget that school is killing my ass.to just sit down and chat is truly a luxury.and i think your bike is damn cute ((: i shall now go and do my assignment.ilykthxbye.

2008-11-04T00:09:00.003+08:00

BEFORE.lol.ok.taken same day.and i just wanted to show off my green eyes.yes very pointless.

AFTER.same outfit.same eyes.same place.different hair.
decided to do scarring.nice not?the lines are a bit random but that's besides the point.i quite like the experience of shaving my hair.ilykthxbye.

2008-10-30T16:51:00.002+08:00

warning!emotional post ahead!

touch has always been something that has made me feel fulfilled.when things got particularly rough and shitty the one thing that was sure to make me forget all my insecurities was touch.i loved the field,the people,the odd shaped ball.everything about it made it my soma.however ever since i came into ntu,touch has lost its magic.i don't feel as accomplished as i did.i don't come early for training.i don't want trainings to stretch.i am what i was not in jc.i keep skipping training something that i never did in jc unless i really had to.god.i played in a touch competition which was a day before my a level lit paper.but now...damn.i'm not going to allow myself to think about this.going to just go and get glitter so i can do something brainless.ilykthxbye.

2008-10-28T10:02:00.002+08:00

one's body is not made to smoke 7 marlboro ice mint in 1 sitting on a semi-empty stomach.fuckadingdongs.i'm still wearing my clothes from yesterday and i look like shitte.gah.and i came 1hour early for lecture and i am penniless.kill me please.smoking is bad for you.don't pick it up.swears.i'm incoherrent.m'sia was good.mindless fun.attempted to ride a motorbike but failed tremendously.haha.and and and i love firecrackers.sparklers are for the wee ones.firecrackers are the sex bomb man.have 1 cherry bomb firecracker with me.and like tons of sparklers.ouh god.my whole body is messed up man.shitte.i need sleep and food.gah.and i want to go halloween costume shopping.(can't wait to see eyecandy.regardless of how bloody bad i look).ilykthxbye.

2008-10-24T22:01:00.002+08:00

going to disappear for awhile.into nothingness and oblivion.going to put myself into an abyss.and not think for a bit.and i decided that watermelon shall henceforth be my eyecandy.wheee.ilykthxbye.

2008-10-23T18:24:00.003+08:00

when it comes to you,
i am scared.
i start to doubt.
who am i?
what is my end?
when will i know
and be sure
of my place?
with you,
life as i know it,
ends.

2008-10-22T19:24:00.002+08:00

all i want to do is sleep all the fatigue away.tired doesn't even begin to describe it.(i sound like a spoiled brat).anyways it's all good cause i'm going to have an extremely long weekend (which i think i will be spending in the vilages of malaysia playing firecrackers) and a supremely short week.friday to tuesday no classes due to public holidays and cancellations of lectures and tutorials.classes on wednesday and thursday only.and fireman can you please not shake your leg so much.it's distracting and shaking legs are a sign that you're idle and can you please tell me if you're really,seriously,beyond a reasonable doubt,coming to ntu.gah.and no stella tan wei si i did not get any.lol.but the back of the knee is really an erogenous zone.go try.(cackles).next wednesday is rock star day.(porn star also can).and the picture here is really redundant but i totally love the effect.my webcam rocks balls please.and i want to watch persona and eat salted popcorn.in the middle of the night at canteen a.(with you).lol.i am very very happy today.and i hope it remains that way.and i really really pray (on my nonexistent boobs) that i will not pick up smoking again.ilykthxbye.

2008-10-21T13:19:00.002+08:00

i am possibly the biggest idiot on earth (at this point in time at least).studied for econs test.slept through econs test.kill me already.but nevermind goodness comes out of it.i have my outfits for next week planned out.YAY!!!
mon: rock star
tues: white shirt
wed: dancer
yes.i know i should be doing my 1600word essay.stop nagging me already.i will do it later.promise.no more emo nemo today.just chiong-ing essay.and getting it done.flirting is such harmless fun.ilykthxbye.

2008-10-19T22:20:00.003+08:00

me:
ugh!sch did not start on a good note...i forgot to bring my ezlink.my laundry is wet=no blanket.i slipped and fell...again )):
mcrider:
Aiyo, why u so clumsy ah... Aiya u can use the curtain as blanket hor... Then u can use oven to
dry ur laundry ma... Aiya u ah... Wah i give up liao lor... Wahahahaha

((:

2008-10-18T21:02:00.002+08:00

just got news that my ex-classmate's mother just passed away.have no idea what i can do.so please do drop me a text or an email with suggestions.i wasn't close to her but she was my classmate and i was the chairperson.anyway what makes it more sad is that her parents are divorced and she was living with her mother who was looking after her grandparents.so it's really rather messed up right now.so please help me help her ok.ilykthxbye.

2008-10-17T17:31:00.003+08:00

LAST NIGHT WAS THE ABSOLUTE BOMB
mcrider had made plans to come but couldn't "due to last minute upheavals"
*wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee*
LIGHT STICKS ARE FUCKING ORGASMIC
going out with fireman after exams
*wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee*
GETTING HIGH ON COKE IS THE ULTIMATE
babe is coming back in 10 days
*wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee*
LIFE IS GETTING MORE BEARABLE AND FUN
the encik who tagged was him
*wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee*
ILYKTHXBYE

2008-10-16T10:16:00.003+08:00

rub down the top layer
anticipate the tears
pick up a knife
test it's sharpness
just right for peeling
the first layer's easy
nary a teardrop
but brace yourself
it gets harder
eyes will water
hang in there
the end is near
reach the heart
that's what it is
truly.

2008-10-14T22:50:00.002+08:00

http://philip.greenspun.com/zoo/red-riding-hood

a worthy read.despite the fact that my blog is filled with thrash,the rest of the net isn't.mcrider is mia.hmmm.shall go indulge in a nice long shower.imagine that.lol.ilykthxbye.

2008-10-14T18:59:00.008+08:00

today is going to be a super influx of posts day.i decided to do some diy and turned my jeans into a freaking short skirt.then since i felt like it and audrey (my roomie) wasn't in.i thought i'd play dressup.all outfits are worn with my trademark double stockings.black semi-opaque inside and fishnet outside.

look 1:my diy skirt.its ultimate chao geng fest.

look 2:fucking love the corset-y effect of my belt.boobs look fucking fake.lol.
look 3: i really love suspenders man
off for dinner...expensive dinner..my bank is going to burst wide open.i bought 40USD worth of things from F21 (yellow wallet,notebook,ribbed stockings&shorts).and i just spent like 40SGD today on birthday stuff.dies.my mummy tells me to stop being so clumsy.i'm not just a flirt in a skirt.says the hall 8 cheerleading tee.cuteness.mcrider,smile please.ilytkthxbye.

2008-10-14T14:49:00.002+08:00

only i can resprain my still recovering sprained ankle.i am beyond clumsy.serious.and it totally made me think that Singaporeans (or maybe just that girl) are really not nice.seriously.i fell down like on my knees already and you just stood there gaping waiting for me to pick your phone which dropped.fuck.just cause you wearing nice dress doesn't mean you cannot help people right.you were RIGHT BESIDE me.not like 10million miles away.i am like quite upset cause my bag is bloody heavy )): i can already feel my ankle throbbing and it is now seriously thrice the size of my normal ankle.serious.never lie.lol.anywayyy despite yesterdays bullshitte (to the point of no return) luck of bumping into my "stalker" and today's great fall i have had a marvelous beginning to my week with eliters gang and mcrider and eighters ((: and encik you don't faster recover already.then we can be handicapped together.lol.i think its retribution for whip creaming everyone and looking so so so very happy and clean.can't wait for my f21 spree things to come next week.totally rocks when stella my gf sprees cause it takes like less than a week to come compared to other spree-ers who take like FOREVER.and i don't have to pay for registered mail cause i see her in school!ok.i have decided that i am happy ((: damn nonsense.btw i really have no idea where block 2 is.needs to hop to tutorial nowww -.- seriously cannot belive i resprained my ankle.i'm the bomb man...ilykthxbye!

2008-10-12T23:47:00.001+08:00

arghhhhhhhhhhhh.he saw me doing the stupid pole dance i was dared to do at dbl o.i just died from humiliation.thank you babies for totally making me do it.serious.never lie.cross my heart and hope to dieeeeeeeeeeee.omg.KILL ME ALREADY!!!

2008-10-11T12:42:00.003+08:00

The Winner Takes It All
I don't wanna talk
About the things we've gone through
Though its hurting me
Now its history
Ive played all my cards
And that's what you've done too
Nothing more to say
No more ace to play

The winner takes it all
The loser standing small
Beside the victory
That's her destiny

I was in your arms
Thinking I belonged there
I figured it made sense
Building me a fence
Building me a home
Thinking Id be strong there
But I was a fool
Playing by the rules

The gods may throw a dice
Their minds as cold as ice
And someone way down here
Loses someone dear
The winner takes it all
The loser has to fall
Its simple and its plain
Why should I complain.

But tell me does she kiss
Like I used to kiss you?
Does it feel the same
When she calls your name?
Somewhere deep inside
You must know I miss you
But what can I say
Rules must be obeyed

The judges will decide
The likes of me abide
Spectators of the show
Always staying low
The game is on again
A lover or a friend
A big thing or a small
The winner takes it all

I don't wanna talk
If it makes you feel sad
And I understand
You've come to shake my hand
I apologize
If it makes you feel bad
Seeing me so tense
No self-confidence
But you see
The winner takes it all
The winner takes it all

i just watched mamma mia.(so kill me for being slow).this is my absolutely most favourite scene and song in the whole movie.i have been officially bitten by the musical bug.ding dang dongs of a dblo closed early and my 2nd round on the floor was so anti-climatic.anddd...i totally didn't hook up with anyone.(yes seriously kill me now).anddd...arif's friend was cute.(omg.i should be killed).anddd fastfood makes me shit.like instantaneously.(kill me please).here we are all squeezed into the photo id booth.everyone was tipsy save for me.yeah for coke!ilykthxbye!

the aftermath.

2008-10-08T23:00:00.002+08:00

i am extremely to the power of infinity pissed off.with myself and fucking john little.bought nipple tape from the john little opposite somerset mrt.then thinking that since john little is a reputable store i didn't keep my receipt.only to discover that the box my nipple tape came in was empty.fuck fuck fuck.i shall punish myself by not sleeping until my fiction paper is done.urgh.$20 down the damn fucking bloody drain...kill me please.

2008-10-06T18:22:00.003+08:00

FUCK MAN!!!I FUCKING HATE CICAKS!!!OF ALL THE BLOODING FUCKING IDIOTIC PESTS IN THE WORLD CICAKS MUST BE THE WORST!!!THEY ARE SO DEVIOUS!!!NOT HAVING A BACKBONE SO THAT THEY CAN SQUEEZE THROUGH ANY NOOK AND CRANNY!!!AND HAVING SUCH A MULTITUDE OF COLOURS FROM PUKE GREEN TO SHIT BLACK!!!THEY HAVE STICKY FEET THAT LETS THEM STICK TO WALLS AND CEILINGS BUT FEET THAT AREN'T STICKY ENOUGH WHEN YOU WALK UNDER THEM SUCH THAT THEY DROP ON YOU!!!FUCKING CICAKS SHOULD BE ANNIHILATED!!!I HATE CICAKS!!!

on a lighter note.tomorrow is stella day i.e. girls must go braless and guys must free ball.yipeee.and thursday is way way way on man.

2008-10-05T17:00:00.003+08:00

i am screaming at the futility of it all.stupid hotmail is being a bitch.i can't view my emails.ugh.and i still haven't had word from hall 8 cheer.i haven't had proper food since morning and everything i'm eating refuses to sit quietly in my stomach.i'm ecstatic at the idea of having a fashion spread of campus fashion but ntu dearly lacks fashionable people.and the worst is that touch doesn't make me feel accomplished anymore.ENOUGH.positive thoughts.yesterday night was the bomb.carousel cakes,bakerzin pastas and mindless chit chat and not needing to say anything and knowing precisely what the other was thinking.i need more of such days/nights.i want to watch house bunny.to my babies please please please don't cancel out on me this thursday.ilykthxbye.

2008-10-03T03:16:00.000+08:00

yanni wants hugs please.

2008-10-01T23:09:00.003+08:00

my grands.love them to bits.

blue moonnn....

my sister who is sitting for psle

my tak glam mother,the only one whose got this girl

need i really say more?

aunt.mum.gran.camwhoring's in my blood yo.

my littlest cousin.she was crying 2secs before this.

another one of the 23 grandkids.

vainpotting is in the blood somewhere too.

proof.

lol.spent the whole day at my uncle's place where my grands were raya-ing at this year.just sat and stuffed my face to the point that my kain(skirt) that was loose in the morning felt tighter at the end of the day.lol.played with the kiddies.caught up with my aunts and uncles.and just basically basked in the love that was overflowing from my uncle's place.

this year's ramadhan has been a really trying one for me not only because i was doing it alone but also because me and amirul aka my best friend were not on speaking terms.parts i've said all i can say.i've trully forgiven you.one mistake is cancelled out by the innumerous times you've always been there for me.you were and i hope will always be the one thing i can fall back on.while at times we may go for months not contacting each other but we both knew that the other would be there regardless.i don't know what it is that's going through your mind right now or even if you still read this but i just want you to know that it's the first day of syawal.a good day for forgiving others and yourself.anyway i just wanted you to know that despite what has happened you're still my parts.

on a lighter note.tomorrow's my brother's pop.hope to see plenty of eye candy.haha.suddenly remembered a convo that occured between me and lala.i think i'm kinda resigned to certain things in life ready...
lala: eh u seriously not contacting anyone right now?
me: yups.swear on my boobs.
lala: but whyyyyy?you choosy ah?
me: how to be choosy when got no guy?

babe.you still make my heart skip beats.ilykthxbye.

2008-09-29T19:10:00.002+08:00

FOURTY-SEVEN POINT EIGHT!!!

2008-09-28T22:58:00.002+08:00

it's nearing the end.we are still at odds with each other.i may act all dumb and shitte but having known me and been my friend for the past 6years,you should know i am not stupid.i know of your blog and all that you are going through.do you think i'm such a heartless bitch.ya.i might not show it because of my fat ass ego but i'm telling you right now that i fucking miss you like hell.fuck what happened ok.i shall take what you say and believe it simply because that's what we built our friendship on.trust in each other.ok.excessively negative emotions is bad for health.i shall go for another smoke by the road side cause i don't want to get kicked out of hall and i shall write another paragraph for my 104 essay.disappear please 104 essay.like *poof* school sucksss.

2008-09-27T20:56:00.002+08:00

mosquitoes stop biting me please.i cut my hair.lol.i do not look like a boy.and babe i know you read this and i know you love my long and sexy hair but i also know that you love me more.lol.if your flight were earlier i would send you off but 0145 is simply too early.but i don't care you will take me out next friday and i shall influence you to get the green chromatic.whee.and i shall get the pink one at the end of the year.and babe you better bring my car plate this friday.it will serve as a motivation to pass my class 3.and i seriously cannot write my stupid 104 essay.somebody kill me already.i shall look forward tobaking tomorrow.chocolate chip cookies and cornflakes.can you scream yummy.and i shall look forward to monday.GEYLANG!fai please please please get a car.i will promise to not disturb you about your crush.lol.and will somebody please buy me those christmas lights so i can hang it up in my room and get festive.lol.october is set to be a fun filled month.hari raya.deepavali.birthdays.pop.halloween.touch comp.pay day.tongue piercing.whee.i am a happy girl.and i am loved.what more could i ask for.ilykthxbye.

2008-09-26T20:47:00.004+08:00

i went like totally totally high today.did like pitch toss(?) and full liberty pop.fell twice but totally sticked it the third time.the feeling is damn shiok man.ahhh.i'm damn damn damn happy now.and i seriously need to stop screaming everytime i go up.lol.sorry jake keep falling on you today.and my ankle is back in cracking mode.lalala.few more days to hari raya.don't feel the mood.i should totally put lights up in my room.make it look more festive.lol.and yusuf don't be nonsense.fasting month cannot think dirty thoughts.the touch you use in cheer is supposed to be a professional touch.bullshitte man you.self control man.as you can see i'm like super happy cause i totally totally went up to liberty.not perfect but not bad.did a bit of basing for 2-2-1 and gladiator.can do it perfectly ok on ground level.don't know how it'll be when i'm on shoulder stand.somehow i'm sort of glad i didn't make aces cause eighters is smaller and less competitive.now i just need to drag fai in so that we have more guys and i can fly more.lol.i love flying.basing and flying is like two ends of the world ah.basing you feel super good when your stunt goes up.flying you feel super good when you don't crumble unto your bases.i am such a happy girl.whee.nowww if only someone will get me a new navel stud.i lost the ball bearing for mine and i totally don't have spare.wheee.ok.watch this video to see the stunt i did.1:12 is liberty, 1:49 is 2-2-1 and 1:56 is gladiator.and watch this to see eighters.champions baby.off to do wretched 104 essay.ilykthxbye.

2008-09-24T14:09:00.003+08:00

it's wednesday and here i am blogging and watching movies back to back and not doing my assignments.will someone please give my big fat ass a big fat kick.i have to read like 10million things and write 10million words and figure out 10million things.how am i,a bimbo,supposed to cope?!pouts.and i need the time to fly faster because i am absofuckinglutely starving.i shall force my lazy self to do homework now...i thought it's a break week but i can totally wll(wait long long).ilykthxbye.

2008-09-22T23:37:00.003+08:00

110metre dash.
hurdles.hurdles.hurdles.
psych myself up.
bopping to my beat.
i can do it.
position myself.
placed for victory.
fingers on the edge.
feet on the blocks.
ready.set.OFF.
false start.
back to the line.
trying to chill.
fingers on the edge.
feet on the blocks.
on your marks.get set.OFF.
false start.
back to the line.
deep breaths.
fingers on the edge.
feet on the blocks.
ke garisan.sedia.OFF.
false start.
disqualified.
a sigh.
relief.

you're just too nice.you're mr.right.and i just want to have fun.i want mr.right-NOW.i'm leaving before i hurt you.i'm sorry.ilykthxbye.

2008-09-21T23:43:00.002+08:00

the haven
in the corner
dark and secluded

the escape
at the back
unseen and forgotten

the shelter
from prying eyes
warm and safe

it eludes
it dodges
it skips
me.

just another one.no.i am not feeling sad.despite the fact that plans with nas baby have to be cancelled it's all still good.plans for tomorrow.go marketing.cook.go hall.take in laundry.go town.fix watch.go one fullerton.mug.all the while looking like a million bucks cause...you never know who you'll meet outside.i talk too much shitte.goodnight world.ilykthxbye.

2008-09-21T00:15:00.010+08:00

i can't take pictures properly when i'm high.

thanks for lunch babe.and the bad singing

11 out of 16 ain't too bad right.

threesomes.3stooges.3musketeers.(un)holy trinity.

random.my class is random.and i was the chairperson.oh wait.that explains everything.

me hearts upkirting.
hehehe.class gatherings make me happy cause i get to see my loved ones and be utterly crazy and without a care.just some pictures of the crazy things 0643A does.and some very overdued pictures.heee.

me and wl.we are so...(fill in the blank with the correct adjective)

lights make everything look so fairytale like.

timbre.i was channelling androgynous lumberjack chic.my very pretty but yucky strawberry margarita mocktail.
we could take a little trip around singapore town...(sing the rest yourself)
this was the day that i was labelled spg.omg.i want my tragus pierced )):

stupid.now this entry is so filled with unglam shots of me.and those i love.i miss having multiple ear piercings.and i NEED to pierce my tongue.rraahh (this is not the sound of a dinosaur,it is a cat).can't wait for monday.seeing nas baby and hopefully clara honey.lol.last thing before i go.another simple one.

peter.pater.peter.pater.
playing in front of me.
peter.pater.peter pater.
wiped off my windshield.
peter.pater.peter.pater.
replaced by another.
peter.pater.peter.pater.
is my fate similar?

ilykthxbye.

2008-09-19T21:53:00.002+08:00

i got bad bad bad headache )): and like flu and sore throat.i know you're laughing at me and saying i totally brought it upon myself with the late nights filled with licorice macadamia nut cookie dough and menthol.but i am still happy.had a fruitful and fun shopping trip.got my wrap pants and wallet after procrastinating for donkey centuries.going to get my vintage black bag from online seller tomorrow.i'm a happy girl.i can't wait for class gathering.lol.haven't seen everyone in damn long and like seriously wonder how people have changed.lol.i forsee it to be a fun night.haha.will be going shopping with ocs boy before that.he needs to get winter wear for his ocs trip up to taiwan.and i shall bat my eyelashes like there's not tommorow so he'll be nice and let me benefit from his ocs pay.i'm a seriously lhl.i think i'm going to like bat my eyelashes at my mum to get her to massage my pretty little head for me.ilykthxbye.