dearest idham hakim,
thank you for talking to me last night and allaying all that needed to be put to rest.i am slowing scraping the ground to dig a hole big enough to bury this mountain of nonsense.and yes.i realised that i did not love syeh muhammad hafiz.i like all the drama.the crazy highs and the devastating lows.the jealousies the lust that erupted the moment i see him.i loved those moments.i never loved him.thank you for becoming my go to person again.the person i talk to when my brain starts filling up with this and that.and listening to me ramble and putting down my arguments so i can come up with better ones.thank you for being the friend you were back in secondary school all over again.for calling when you know i most needed someone to talk to.thank you for flirting with me and making me feel wanted even though we both know it's all in the name of fun.thank you also for being jealous whenever i talk about J.and yes i know i talk about J alot.but it's better J than harping upon the past syeh muhammad hafiz.thank you sayang.really.and thank you for asking me out to lunch and nagging me for not eating more than 1 meal a day.thank you for being a friend.
yanni.

ps.NAS!i deleted my sappy LJ entry (: