it has been a good year for me actually.the last few days may not have been ideal but after last night it seems that 2008 will end on a good note.here are shoutouts to the people i love.cheers.

shelly yeo xue li and noramirah binte abu bakar.i have not been the best third to our threesome but it seemed that i have little in common with you now.for one the two of you are in nus.and then there's the boyfriend that both of you have.i knew that we would drift apart but i didn't think it would be so soon.maybe as 2009 rolls in we will have settled into uni life and have time to spend together.i'm like incomplete.i need my two-thirds y'know?

you have been the best thing that has happened to me since sec 1.you're like my best ever girlfriend.and sometimes things can get weird between us and we seem to be out of sync but in the end i know that you're the best thing that has happened to me.the past month we've been closer than we've ever been in quite awhile and i was reminded of why i love you.we say the same things we text each other at the same time.and you totally get me.7years and counting baby.

stella gf,c baby,wl,shar,jay and daniel.thanks for being friends with me.i'm not the most interesting person on the planet nor am i that tolerable and yet you guys felt that i was ok enough to be friends with.you have made my uni life so far bearable and truckloads of fun.another 7 semesters to go and i do believe we'll stay friends.2nd upper people.no less!we are english majors and we will have a job at stella's school when we graduate.lol.

to clara love:i'm glad we're friends again.i cannot wait to see you this thursday.kisses.
to nicholas goh:thank you for loving me.especially when i didn't love myself.really.
to ami darling:let's forget what happened and start anew.you're still my person.
to zul sayang:we'll always have something no one had.12days together in sabah.
to hunney:what's the point of hiding when everyone already knows?let's date.lol.

there were moments in 2008 which i would rather not have had.however how can you know happiness if you never faced sadness.so it's all good.have a great one y'll.it's been a long(er) year.


this isn't the perfect course of action nor is it the perfect arrangement.nothing about this is perfect.but for the few hours that you're here time for me stops.and i am ensconced in what i deem to be perfection.from 400 to 1030 for the seventh time in 2 months i fall asleep in this nook your shoulder has and in your tshirt that smells of cigarettes,united colours of benetton cologne and you.

know that when i read her blog i feel inferior.i feel that what i feel for you is not enough.not even close to the intensity of what she feels.and i feel inferior.i feel that she is the better person.i feel that she makes you a better person.i feel that this is no contest for her because she is simply who she is.the better choice.but though this competition is killing me i'm in it.so pick me.choose me.love me.me.

this is my so-called "confession".this is me telling you that i don't want to shower because i smell like you.this is my declaration to the world wide web.this is me not hinting.this is me not hiding.this is me blatantly telling you.yes YOU.that i want you to want me and not her.this is me putting myself on the line because since 12 october 2004 i have not known a moment where i didn't want you.

i love you.ok.thanks.bye.





can hear people caroling.i am so not in the mood for happy.blame it on the fact that i cannot lift my legs.like i need to use my hands to cross my legs and it kills to climb up stairs.but surprisingly my abs feel alright.on my way to getting a six pack.and looking great in bed.stupid oj always squeeze my fats.and speaking of oj.that boy just refuses to listen to me.his wisdom is killing him and affecting the other teeth and yet he refuses to go to the dentist."scary ah" he says.am alone at home on a saturday night.woe is me.maybe i should step out of my comfort zone and go catch a movie alone.i already miss nas and ami and zul.and just saw them like a few days ago?and P still hasn't gotten back to me regarding HL202.wilson and i are contemplating quitting school and rotting on toilet seats and in starbucks and at the same time i need to pimp him to terrence so that i have money.disgust is desire philophises wilson.so wilson's disgust towards terrence's advances is in actual fact his desire.killed himself by saying that.seriously.i'm very sad la actually.i didn't get to go for ocs boy's commissioning parade.and he's so not asking me to the ball.i was supposed to be that girl.the one who was there at the start and the one who is there at the end.but i guess it's just not meant to be.oh well.feel like going to starbucks to get atas kopi and finish reading murakami.hmmm.ilykthxbye.


i totally did not sleep because
1.oj's wisdom tooth is growing out and he kept tossing and turning in bed
2.i was coughing like there's no tomorrow
3.my roomie walked in on oj and i (talk about awkward!)
4.oj's mum texted him saying his staying out was getting tad bit too much
5.ocs boy's mum is in hospital
6.i'm hungry

yesterday night was so so weird.sixth time oj's slept over.no night has ever been so eventful.lol.oj smelt of ciggs and cologne.can someone spell sexy.lol.now i feel like smoking.i know it's bad for my lungs but drinking's bad for your liver.and smoking kills my appetite.so a the disadvantage and the advantage cancels each other out.lol.my logic.i'm rambling.ok.going to go shower and get some food in me.ilykthxbye.











of late nights and friends
of crazy nonsensical silly texts
of rubbing my back when i cough
of knocking doors and door latches
of sleeping in the crook of your arm
of snuggling for hours and slow wet kisses
of scents and tastes and sights and sounds
of right and wrong and reasons and excuses
of crispy peanut butter waffles and lazy lunches
of my rights to eat slowly and not finish my food
of all that makes makes me and everything alright
i'm not falling in love.i'm just falling in place.ilykthxbye.


"i just wanted a reason to text you"
this boy makes me damn happy.

i am going to get cousin no 21 in 6-7months.
that's grandchild number 24.wheeeeeee.

life is at an absolutely disgusting standstill.
and i'll be complaining next week cause of trainings.

anyone up for B&J's chunk fest?
gf perfect excuse to wear our maxis!!!

still have not registered for classes for next sem.
slap me already.i am so fucking tired.i must be getting old.

i miss all those pool sessions with my beloved 643A.
and i miss touch.i fucking miss it.i quit the ntu team btw.