warning!emotional post ahead!

touch has always been something that has made me feel fulfilled.when things got particularly rough and shitty the one thing that was sure to make me forget all my insecurities was touch.i loved the field,the people,the odd shaped ball.everything about it made it my soma.however ever since i came into ntu,touch has lost its magic.i don't feel as accomplished as i did.i don't come early for training.i don't want trainings to stretch.i am what i was not in jc.i keep skipping training something that i never did in jc unless i really had to.god.i played in a touch competition which was a day before my a level lit paper.but now...damn.i'm not going to allow myself to think about this.going to just go and get glitter so i can do something brainless.ilykthxbye.