when yanni feels extreme emotion she blogs in the third person.yanni managed to finally (with close supervision of her grandma dearest) cook her santan-less fish based laksa.so far she has only received compliments for it even though personally she thinks that it could be better.she feels out of touch with the cook in her and wishes she could cook in hall instead of just using the very useless microwave.she is still happy though and is currently happily eating the second plate of healthy laksa which is heaped with cockles,chilli,fish cakes,lime and some herb thingy.yanni is very happy eventhough she will be fasting all by herself this year.and it will truly be an uphill task.until the next time yanni feels extreme emotion.she loves you.ok.thanks.bye.


all i feel like doing is curling up in a corner with a blanket to keep me warm and hidden and just think.i am not angry with you anymore.anger just saps me of my energy.i am not into you anymore.i see no happy ending in it.i feel so very tired of it all.come back to me and lie next to me and just hold me close and let me breathe in your scent and i shall fall asleep.happy.excessively emotional.it is not good to leave yanni alone.sigh.ilykthxbye.


omg omg omg.i am very happy.made stupid mistakes at touch just now BUT i made a dive and the mud splatter was TOTALLY worth it.screaming in ecstacy.supremely happy now.if only SOMEONE would come and give me a hug.it'll just SEAL the deal.very very contented sigh.i shan't blog about it anymore lest i jinx it.i am so totally going to go gym and watch my diet and shitte.the freaking coach is ann goh.elated please.ilykthxbye.


i didn't make the cut for aces.


emo.yanni is emo.she is trying (in vain) to remember the last time a guy approached her for her number.she is feeling extremely sad and lousy.she is hence blogging in the third person.she is wondering if she is THAT bad.she will however not resort to joining crazy assed things as perbayu.she loves muhammad zulfadhli.she is also in need of some serious hugging for she has not had a proper hug since superman last met her.she is now very sad and will sign off before her blog turns into a bleeding self pitying piece of nonsense.she loves you and wishes to say ok thanks and bye.


come and engulf me and snuff out all my fears
come and engulf me and put to rest my trepidition
come and engulf me and slay my dark monsters
come and engulf me and make me see reason
come and engulf me and just be here...with me.

yanni.


i messed up my auditions.suppose it ain't meant to be.oh well.on an utterly different note.i have fallen madly in love with rooftops.almost all rooftops in ntu can be accessed and hence little me has been up on the rooftops looking as far as the little eye can see.it calms me.this height.the dizzying effect it gives me when i stand on the edge and look down somehow gives me my bearings.go read http://aautomatism.blogspot.com.ilykthxbye.


omg!!!i'm going to shit myself thinking about aces tryouts.ahhhh!!!went tanning just now.not much darker but i'm happy.i love the sun.there is truly nothing better than the feel of the sun's rays caressing your body.freaking nice.then the wind blow.PERFECT.contented as a cheshire cat.purrrrr.seriously going to make this a weekly thing this sem since i have SE7EN hour break between classes on wednesdays.eat breakfast then gym then tan.i will be one hot as hell cheerleader.damn xbai laaa.i want to get into the team so bad.rraahh!!!own the stupid showoffs.my heart is like skipping a million and one beats just thinking about it.i cannot remember wanting something so badly since i stepped down as touch rugby captain.omg.i don't even know why.haha.other than that the seniors body are orgasm worthy.lol.stupid encik stop saying i horny.idiot.ok ok.going to go and make dinner.people should seriously take me out to eat or all i'll ever eat is instant noodles.super unhealthy!!!ilykthxbye.

ps.kiss you soon encik.(i couldn't resist)lol.





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Anyway I discovered the fun of webcam. Super fun. Right? Lieutenant? Ok. Final instalment of cheer workshop tomorrow. I am still undecided on cheer. It's really fun and I do love the seniors who have been with me and the people I go for cheer with and I like how it's something different from what I've done. Maybe it's time to be the one who is cheering and not the one being cheered on?

Things between me and superman are back to normal. Cleared everything up and things are as they were. Fun. Digressing. All the reading is killing me. I don't get how something that has 2530 lines can still be called a poem. It's a short story. Seriously. On another note, I'm quite pissed with M1 cause they lost my timesheet for an M1 roadshow and hence I am penniless until they pay me...NEXT month.

oh well.have to go and read sir gawain and the green knight for lecture tomorrow which is at 0830.and having such early lectures have prompted us to declare tomorrow fbt and school tee day.ultimate in slack attire.be slack or be square people.don't ps/buih/bubble.see you all at fking early lecture tomorrow.ilykthxbye.



this is how i look after cheer.lol.i totally made new friends just now and went for a drive at the cemetery.we unanimously agree that chinese gravestones make for an extremely scary atmosphere cause it's totally big and you seriously can't see if there's anything behind it.lol.yes i know it's THAT month.anway been working quite hard at cheer workshop.second session today.tryouts this friday.i don't want to make the cut but not make the team.sigh.i loved rainbow day today.and i'm going to totally S/U black and white day tomorrow )): i'm super tired now but i have like tutorials to do )): *SCREAMS* and i like pulled(?) my right hamstring.gone man.can feel it screaming for mercy even as i sit and type this.i should SERIOUSLY spend less time updating and more time doing tutorial.but blogging is jsut so addictive and my entries are getting longer and more long winded and oh-so-aunty.i should just shut up now and say ilykthxbye.


It started raining just as I got home. I'm loving the gloom; this rain. The vague vision and water slipping off everything. This rain is the kind of rain of leaden skies, yet not sending messages of a grave portent to come. This rain smells like new. A saccharine lachrymosity heralding and the great unburdening of expectant good. Soak it in till every cell, pore, corner, nook and cranny is percolated. All is washed. All is good. Feeling good today. I must admit I miss you and sometimes I wonder if things would be the way they are today if I never said anything. However I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason. Hence I will not ponder and wonder about what was and what could have been. For today ilykthxbye.


so anyway things are slowly falling back into place and some sort of normalcy.came to terms with all that has happened and accepting it as part of my growing process.went for aces workshop yesterday.not too bad i suppose.but the seniors expect too much out of a first session,in my opinion.it's a different world from touch.we'll see how things go.until then ilykthxbye.


going on hiatus.too much is happening at one time.need to put my life back in order.ilykthxbye.


haiya.i'm going to forget superman and stop wanting to be his krptonite.sighs.depressed.i shall go and stuudy with liang liang at macs.say hello to miss eye luggage.ilykthxbye.


after what parts told me everything seemed to make so much more sense.every word,action,reaction.it totally shed some light on why things were the way they were.was merely blown away when parts told me that the one time i badly wanted to be right i could not have to the point of no return been so very wrong.so off.i don't want school.i am sick.i sound like a frog.ribet ribet.and parts nothing will ever happen between me and superman.it's a totally one-sided affair.on my part.haha.but still...ilykthxbye.


decided to let my tragus heal.it was freaking swollen and hurting badly.so anyway...i think i like someone and it's fking ridiculous cause we barely text and let's not even talk about meeting.RRAAHH.i should just turn lesbian.won't have to worry when your period is late,can get your girlfriend to get feminine related stuff and you won't draw a blank stare,can turn guys on with hot girl on girl action,the list just goes on.freaks.i need a distraction.and my knee is still hurting.maybe i will see a doctor tomorrow since i've no school.must calculate all the damned cost of going cause i'm really tight this month.it's all good though.it's all good.i think i only like this guy cause he is so freaking unattainable.tall.wellbuilt.malay.funny.calm.but he is really damn not in my league.but his kisses are oh-so-...i'm so messed up.so anyway school's going to be full force from next week.i don't think i'm able to make the touch team.which is going to seriously kill me.maybe i should try a new sport.we will see.until next time.ilykthxbye.


deleted yesterday's post which was done in the middle of a major bitch fit.i don't hate hate you superman.anyway finally back at home after a week in hall.it's not too bad but i realiseed that i reeally can't live without breakfast.so sad.oh well.it's been a pretty slack week cause tutorials have not started but i forsee myself being very busy.sighs.and very broke.SIGHS.school is costing a bomb and it's only just beginning.on a brighter note i got all the modules i wanted and will clear the 18AUs that i need to clear this sem.ilykthxbye.


lecturers are nonsense.i want to cry.start lectures at like 0830 and end a 2hr lecture at 0915.and my tragus is still super swollen.it doesn't hurt though.finally told my mum what happened and she was quite nice about it.and superman is still in hospital.and i'm still in hostel.trying to embrace university life in its entirety.i don't feel like i belong.not yet.i the meantime.ilykthxbye.


of all the things to be addicted to,i'm addicted to the feeling of being pierced.had my 2nd hole (re)pierced and my left tragus pierced.gonna pierce my helix soon.this is the result of not getting my tongue pierced.i am so depressed.i hate all the stupid sorrow electives is giving me.go away electives.have to contend with what i can get now.fucking irritating.am very tired.and stupid superman is in hospital.i don't like him.i shall go bathe now.ilykthxbye.


didn't know living in hostel could make you feel so lonely.i've the whole afternoon ahead of me and i have absolutely no idea what to do.other than reading my lit texts for classes i have nothing to do.want to go pierce my tongue now cause i'm so bored.by the end of today i WILL have a tongue piercing.ilykthxbye.


i'm like having verbal diarrehorea.must talk about everything.lol.school hasn't even started properly and i already broke a rule.i'm so messed up laa.and my hostel bed and clothes now smells of superman cologne.stupid.and no you didn't win the bet.it's at the same time.you totally weren't first.anyway i know that i'm going to get burnt laa but i can't seem to care.it's like so whatever already.just live for the moment.what happens will happen one way or another.haiya.but i'll be lying if i said i mind cause it's making me forget for that hour what i'm facing.this is nonsense man.i'm totally rambling laa.i can't be bothered to censor.hence the rather long entry.anyway today was like spent listening to people drone on and on about uni life.i felt like saying shut up already but since im such a nice-y i decided to not say anything and just grin and bear it.so anyway ya i met like this super eccentric girl today (and i mean bad eccentric).i don't like her.she behaves in the same way as *** (omg!i'm censoring).acting like a total know-it-all and thinking she's all that.i mean i think i'm all that too but at least i'm irresistable.(pardon me,i'm delirious.)i can't sleep from excitement.my first touch carnival since 26th November 2007 where my team won plate champions (thank you very much).we're coming back as defending champs.which is total nonsense but whatever.i'm just super excited.everytime i will watch the girls from the sidelines and curse and swear when they play like shitte.not that i'm very good but i was founding captain.lol.(i should stop blowing my own horn lest i start sounding like certain people).god forbids!anyway ya la the whole point of my rambling was to say that i'm not censoring anything anymore and just publishing anything i feel like publishing.so many things to look forward to.i'm a happy girl (for now).btw i'm more or less confirmed piercing my tongue this sunday.ilykthxbye.