First they ignore you, then they laugh at you, then they fight you, then you win.

Gandhi

Have been doing alot of thinking lately. Just staring at nothing in particular and letting the thoughts run amok in my head. Letting it rip and only voicing it out to myself.

I am happy that your appeals for FASS has gone through and that come 4th August you will be donning NUS colours. However my happiness for you is tarnished by my own regret at not having appealed and just trying my luck. It pains me to know that with this fork in the road we will inevitably grow apart. Regardless of what we say and promise it is not something that can be avoided.

While I encouraged you to take up SMU's offer as I felt that business could take you further, there was a selfish part of me that wanted you to reject the offer and stick to what NTU gave you. When you put on your army uniform, it was the first of many worlds in which I would not be a part of. Now that you have decided to accept SMU's offer, another world separates us. I cannot help but feel that we are slowly drifting apart and it saddens me tremendously.

Those are the few things that i can air out publically and not (hopefully) receive flak for. While I am thankful for my place in NTU, considering their small intake, I do wonder if an appeal I submitted to NUS would have garnered a positive response.

Thank you lieutenant for not pressing me to make small talk, letting me think (even though I'm certain you were bored to your wit's ends) and listening without judging when I spoke.ilykthxbye.