we are all robots.

Thursday, July 31, 2008 Y 08:45

i don't want school to start.how ironic considering that just last week i was lusting for the normalcy of school.but uni is far from normal.all this while everything has been presented to me in a nice silver dish and now uni just hits me with all the matriculation,timatabling,AUs,GER-PE/UE/GER,hosteling...well you get the idea.i've been totally lost (not that i'm not normally) in the whole mess of things.but certain things help to make this transition more bearable like "Kiss. Wander. Joy." lol.thank you for being the epitome of ridiculousness.anywaysss...i totally popped my back during touch yesterday and it's freaking hurting like mad.add this to the busted ankle and i'm really handicapped.it's a wonder they haven't named a hurrcane after me.hurricane yanni.has a nice ring to it eh?i've been digressing.what i really wanted to say is that i'm doing this on my new lappie which shall henceforth be called patrick.that's all.ilykthxbye.

Monday, July 28, 2008 Y 09:41

i vow to not talk about IT.anyway...will someone please sponsor my tongue piercing?i will love you till eternity.(i think)kthxbye.

Sunday, July 13, 2008 Y 12:20

will be off for freshie camp tomorrow.goodbye civilisation.ilykthxbye.

ps.i don't hate HATE you.(i think.)

Tuesday, July 8, 2008 Y 12:01

First they ignore you, then they laugh at you, then they fight you, then you win.

Gandhi

Have been doing alot of thinking lately. Just staring at nothing in particular and letting the thoughts run amok in my head. Letting it rip and only voicing it out to myself.

I am happy that your appeals for FASS has gone through and that come 4th August you will be donning NUS colours. However my happiness for you is tarnished by my own regret at not having appealed and just trying my luck. It pains me to know that with this fork in the road we will inevitably grow apart. Regardless of what we say and promise it is not something that can be avoided.

While I encouraged you to take up SMU's offer as I felt that business could take you further, there was a selfish part of me that wanted you to reject the offer and stick to what NTU gave you. When you put on your army uniform, it was the first of many worlds in which I would not be a part of. Now that you have decided to accept SMU's offer, another world separates us. I cannot help but feel that we are slowly drifting apart and it saddens me tremendously.

Those are the few things that i can air out publically and not (hopefully) receive flak for. While I am thankful for my place in NTU, considering their small intake, I do wonder if an appeal I submitted to NUS would have garnered a positive response.

Thank you lieutenant for not pressing me to make small talk, letting me think (even though I'm certain you were bored to your wit's ends) and listening without judging when I spoke.ilykthxbye.

Monday, July 7, 2008 Y 22:51

i don't think i would ever be a big enough person to put aside whatever it is i feel for you and tell you straight up that i miss you like hell.

Thursday, July 3, 2008 Y 10:20

"If you compare yourself with others, you may beome vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself."

Desiderta, Max Ehrmann (1927).

when i think about this it seems so easy to express but when i get to the laptop and with fingers just barely resting on top of the keys i can't seem to find the power to type what i wanted to say.i need to get rid of this paralysis.in the meantime.ilykthxbye.

Tuesday, July 1, 2008 Y 10:19

i feel blank and empty.(maybe it's a reflection of the very empty wallet).hmmm.i miss kindergarten.i want to sing simple rhymes and trace letters with my left hand.i want to make funny voices when i read a book to the kids.i'm gonna get a degree in english and be an english teacher at some atas kindergarten.fucksss.ilykthxbye.