i think this will be my last entry at blogspot.it seems redundant to maintain 2 blogs.goodbye.


complexity?uncertainty?what else do you have up your sleeve?bring it on baby.i'm game.


J is back.yay (:


it's 6 hours before the day ends and it is not looking good.hs101 was expected but tricky.hl103 was expected,a rewrite.hw111 was an unpleasant surprise.thanks W for telling me.Amal i'm really very sorry you got caught in my mess.J is as he was,an uncertainty.and me.well i'm just tired.this semester is wrecking my life.i pray to high heavens that the remainder of today and this semester for that matter would get better.not just for me but for my fellow english majors.let's see what happens in 6 hours.and if it would be a nay day.


today at 1300hrs i will be sitting for my sociology paper: people and society.after which at approximately 1530hrs i will have to see Frattarola about my 103 paper which i pray to high heavens i would not need to rewrite.then i will make my way to the infamous(?) hss lounge to bury my nose in 103 revision.hopefully sometime in the day i will hear from J.there's 23 hours left before today ends.let's see if it will be yay or nay.


i'm feeling very cheeky and very frisky and very naughty.


dearest idham hakim,
thank you for talking to me last night and allaying all that needed to be put to rest.i am slowing scraping the ground to dig a hole big enough to bury this mountain of nonsense.and yes.i realised that i did not love syeh muhammad hafiz.i like all the drama.the crazy highs and the devastating lows.the jealousies the lust that erupted the moment i see him.i loved those moments.i never loved him.thank you for becoming my go to person again.the person i talk to when my brain starts filling up with this and that.and listening to me ramble and putting down my arguments so i can come up with better ones.thank you for being the friend you were back in secondary school all over again.for calling when you know i most needed someone to talk to.thank you for flirting with me and making me feel wanted even though we both know it's all in the name of fun.thank you also for being jealous whenever i talk about J.and yes i know i talk about J alot.but it's better J than harping upon the past syeh muhammad hafiz.thank you sayang.really.and thank you for asking me out to lunch and nagging me for not eating more than 1 meal a day.thank you for being a friend.
yanni.

ps.NAS!i deleted my sappy LJ entry (: